Posted on: 06 Jul 2021
[Smt. Archana Shukla asked: Pādanamaskāraṃ Swāmiji 🙏🙏🙏 Thank You for being there for me. I am unable to deal with current things whatever going in my life though they are not new. I know whatever I am getting because of only and only my own Karma but how long. Sometimes I question on my devotion towards You may be I am attracted to You because I want to get rid of my pain. It means I am so selfish, how to develop selfless love for You. I am very confused. Last time You answered my question but I was not satisfied. why I am not satisfied like other devotees who immensely enjoying Your knowledge why I am unable to grab it. Sometimes I get jealous to see how they are enjoying to do Your service to get Your knowledge, I am doing nothing. I try to read to hear Your knowledge , try to divert myself but why I am such a foolish to understand the things.
Why I am rotating around my worldly problems why I am too much attached with things. May be I am not deserving person of Your knowledge that's why I am not grasping. There are lots of questions going on my mind which I am unable to express. Swāmi You know everything. though I know whatever I have written it's silly thing instead of this I could have asked any meaningful thing. Please, forgive me, bless me to understand Your knowledge, to serve You. At Your lotus feet 🙏🙏🙏 Your devotee]
Swāmi Replied:- Every young man was a child before and every old man was a young man before. This is the continuous process of creation taking place in subsequent steps. The continuous process is also a cycle and hence you need not worry about your present stage, which repeats again and again. An ignorant soul became a Sage after long penance. The same sage became again an uneducated and ignorant cowherd lady to get Salvation! The child is weak and becomes strong young man and the same child as young man returns to weak in old age, which is again the same weak childhood! You will progress along with the forcible linear dimension of time to get a change and at the end to return to your old starting point. Don’t worry.