Is it correct to feel that I should end my life if service to God is not done by me?

[Shri PVNM Sarma asked:- Is it correct to feel that I should end my life if service to God is not done by me? I feel that the purpose to live is only to serve God.]

Swami replied:- Such thought is very bad because suicide will make the soul to fall in a special hell, called Asurya Loka, which is completely filled with darkness without a trace of light. Such devotees will never be saved by God. Some Gopikas entered into fire when God Krishna left the gross body. Krishna underwent this severe punishment due to such foolish Gopikas. God Krishna can exist in different forms and He went to this Asurya Hell in one form. Hence, devotees shall be very cautious about suicide because by such ignorant action, they are giving permanent pain to God. Service to God in the divine program is of several types. The devotee shall not stick to one type of service only. Suppose that a devotee X is capable in two types of service and another devotee Y is capable in one type of service only. God will give that one type of service to devotee Y and ask the devotee X to remain in the first type of service. In such a case, God is distributing the various types of service among all the devotees based on the limitations of capabilities. This shall not be misunderstood by the devotee X.