What is the purpose of my existence?

[Smt. Amudha Sambath asked: Padha Namaskaram Swami]

[What is the purpose of my existence? Swami, My Goal is You and I promise that I will do everything which pleases You but I feel that I am not useful because I don't see myself in consistent progress. Most of the time I am into worldly stuff and all my time is on it. I am wasting it if I get leisure time. It's my fault, and ignorance. Swami, Please guide me and provide me with a solution...(Click here to read full question)

Swami replied:- You are trying to cook the food with the help of ice. Food will not be cooked by ice but is cooked on fire. Cooked food is preserved with the help of ice. First, use fire and then, use ice. First, fulfill your worldly life and then fulfill your spiritual life. You are not Adi Shankara, Who jumped into spiritual life in the childhood itself. When you are hungry, eat the food and then sing on God. How can you sing on God when the hunger is burning in your stomach? Exceptional cases like Shankara can pacify their hunger by singing on God. That is an extraordinary case. The normal level is to eat food to pacify hunger and then sing on God so that your attention is not dragged by hunger and it is dragged by God only. Make all your trials to settle in Pravrutti or in worldly life and then worship God. Of course, you can be always in touch with My spiritual knowledge, which is a torchlight in worldly life (Pravrutti) as well as in spiritual life (Nivrutti). I give My blessings in your efforts to settle the Pravrutti.