Swami's Compassion: An Infinite Train of Miracles

[By Ms Bhanu Samaikya]

Bowing down to the lotus feet of my Sadguru, His Holiness Shri Datta Swami, I would like to share the miracle that has happened few years ago and is happening in my life till this very second, by the grace of His Holiness Shri Datta Swami.

In the year 2021, I was in the 4th year of my 5-year undergraduate course of Dentistry at the SVS Institute of Dental Sciences in Mahbubnagar, Telangana. One blessed day, when I went for darshan of Swami, the ocean of divine love, He suddenly spoke to me in a profoundly serious and commanding tone—they were divine instructions, urging me to prepare diligently for my final exams. I received His guidance as a holy mission, a spiritual command, and began studying day and night sincerely.

My friends mocked me, laughing that the exam schedule had not even been announced and ridiculed me for studying as if the final day of judgment had already arrived. But, how could I explain to them the depth of my faith in Swami, the omniscient Lord, who sees beyond time? Ignoring their worldly comments, I continued my preparation with thoroughness and surrender.

Two months later, the University Board announced the exams just one month in advance. The syllabus was vast with eight subjects in the final year compared to only three exams in previous years. Fear and tension gripped those, who had mocked me, but I was already prepared. Swami, my compassionate protector, had relieved me of anxiety by guiding me months before the schedule was even released. Truly, this was not the end of His miracle—it was only the beginning of a divine train of miracles.

Just days before the theory exams, I began experiencing palpitations—my heart started beating uncontrollably, filling me with anxiety, tension and chest pain. My roommate, seeing my plight, rushed me to our medical college. Yet, the ECG reports came back normal. In desperation, I phoned to Swami. The omniscient Lord, without me uttering a word, instructed me to pray to Lord Hanuman and assured me that there was no need to visit the hospital again. Swami asked, “Why is Bhanu (the Sun) going west—why are you thinking negatively? Be in the present and leave the future to God”. His divine wisdom pierced my heart. When I began to overthink even that sentence, Swami explained deeply: "Being in the present does not mean looking at the time—like 11:35 AM—and getting anxious that one minute is lost when 11:36 AM comes. Being in the present means working on the current task that must be completed within the upcoming 10 days or one month". He taught me the true meaning of living in the present—not by watching the clock anxiously, but by focusing on the sacred duty at hand.

I surrendered to His words by chanting the name of God Hanuman continuously for hours and peace descended upon me. The exams began—a full month of eight theory and eight practical papers. After five theory exams, I suddenly developed symptoms of Corona and felt immense weakness. Once again, I turned to Swami, the Divine Doctor of souls. With infinite kindness, He prescribed medicines to me, urged me to be strong by reminding me of Hanuman’s heroic devotion—how Hanuman not only found Sita, but also burned Lanka. Swami’s message was clear: we must not only fulfill our duties, but go one step above and beyond with courage and strength. His divine prescription infused me with both physical and mental energy, enabling me to continue my exams. I have realised that I had to concentrate not only on theory, but also on the upcoming practical exams as well.

When the practical exams began, another trial awaited me. With only two practicals left, I suddenly started to feel discomfort in my spinal cord while bending and sitting. I thought it was normal weakness as my health had been wavering. The next day, I went to college for the practical exam. I sat in the examination chair and took the test. After the lecturers collected our papers, I felt gravitated to the chair, unable to get up on my own. I didn't know what was happening to me. I couldn't even pick up a pen cap that had fallen on the floor. I felt a serious issue was imminent, but I still had to give my viva to the external examiner.

I tried to stand up early, even though there were two students before me, realising that it would take time and effort to gather the strength to rise. I stood up with only one thought running through my mind: my body was going to give up soon. So, I had to finish the viva as soon as possible, go to my room and keep my back straight. As I was thinking, the viva for the preceding students finished in a flash. When my turn came, the examiner asked about my parents' occupation and my hometown rather than the syllabus questions! By Swami’s grace, the viva ended quickly and easily.

Since our dental college is 1 km away from the medical college, I knew I couldn't go for a consultation on my own. So, I went straight to my hostel  and collapsed on my bed. Normally, I always bolt the door to avoid disturbance. But strangely, I forgot that day. I wanted to get up and bolt the door, but I couldn't lift my body. No matter how hard I tried, I was unable to move. Only my head and hands were under my control. I tried to turn to the side, but failed. As I tried to lift my body, the pain was so immense that tears flowed like an open water tap. Unable to bear the pain, I finally gave up. Only later did I realize that it was Swami’s divine arrangement that made me forget about bolting the door. Had I bolted the door, no one could have entered to help me in my helpless state. Thirty minutes later, my roommate Sruthi arrived and understood my situation. I phoned to Dr. Geetha Lahari, a devotee of Swami and received some medical guidance. My roommate immediately bought the food and medicines. I had to endure the pain one more day in the hostel and attempt the last exam the following day.

I knew that Swami is omniscient and arranged my bad karma at the perfect time. Swami takes 99.9% of a devotee's bad karma and gives only 0.1% to the devotee honouring the deity of justice. As I was about to pray to Swami to remove the pain, I remembered a miracle done by Swami for Smt. Rama Sundari Garu. She shared in a weekly online Satsanga that a devotee should think properly before asking Swami to remove pain because Swami is too kind to take His devotee's problems onto Himself. I really want to thank her for that insight. I remained silent by deciding to face the pain as it was my own bad deed bouncing back to me. I didn't even inform my family in Hyderabad because they would be worried while I still had one exam left.

Unable to study, I realized the value of Swami's earlier warning. Because of His indication months ago, I had already studied all the important questions! The biggest challenge then was stepping down the hostel stairs (which had no lift) to take the final practical exam. I decided to take a painkiller 30 minutes before the exam, hoping the pain would subside for at least three hours. I slept with that hope, unaware of the immense love Swami has for an  undeserving devotee like me. When I woke up on the day of the exam, miraculously, I could get up on my own. My roommate and I were both shocked. I felt that 90% of the pain had vanished just like that. It felt as if the past two days of suffering had been a mere bad dream! Thanking Swami in my heart, I went to the department and finished the final exam. I passed the exam with top grade and I sincerely dedicate the success of my graduation to Swami because He worked harder for me than I worked to pass the exams. However, the train of miracles had not stopped with this.

Unable to understand what caused the pain, I went to the SVS Medical College for a CT scan. The doctor looked very serious while taking the scan. As soon as I came out, he asked two questions: "Do you have this back pain since birth?" and "Did you undergo any major accident recently?". I denied both. He was confused and said, "Only these two conditions could explain the damage to your spinal cord that is visible in the scan.". I informed about all this to my family members and we went to multiple doctors for consultation. Every doctor was surprised that how can the spinal cord change its shape without a major accidental injury! I am attaching the images of my CT Scan report here along with normal healthy report for comparision.

As a matter of fact, I neither felt this pain since childhood nor met with any accident. I don’t like traveling, sports, dance and any physical activity. I told the doctors that I don’t participate in any physical activities either. Every doctor had admitted that this sudden pain in my spinal cord is beyond their understanding and even the cure is beyond is their expertise because nobody knows when the pain is going to attack suddenly. My family members and myself came to the conclusion that this is purely Swami’s miraculous protection. We understood that Swami would have either taken all my pain for the last 25 years since my birth or He had saved me from a major accident that was destined to happen due to my bad karma. Both scenarios are too horrible to imagine. How can an ignorant soul like me ever comprehend how much pain and effort Swami takes on Himself for me so that I live a normal healthy life?

As time advanced, I started suffering from the attacks of intense sudden pain in my back for hours together. During the episode, I need someone to hold me so that I can sit or sleep or stand. Realising my medical condition, the Dean of my college spoke with my parents and told them that I cannot continue my  dental internship in this condition. He also told that I should drop this course of Dentistry and join an engineering or other professional course because a Dental Doctor has to bend continuously throughout the treatment of the patient and the sensitive condition of my spinal cord will not allow it. He also gave me medical leave to take bed rest for few months. I was clueless about my career and deeply stressed about my future.

As I came home, all my bad karma attacked me at once. I not only suffered from physical pain in the spinal cord, but also from severe depression and anxiety. Only the chanting of God Hanuman’s name brought peace in me. I thoroughly understood the difference in life when I chanted and when I didn’t chant. Reading and discussing the spiritual knowledge given by Swami in His website helped me to overcome the pain and suffering. Had I been ignorant of Swami’s preachings, I would have hated my life thinking that I am suffering unnecessarily. With Swami’s preaching, I realised that I am suffering the pain of what I have inflicted to others in my past since there cannot be any injustice in the divine administration of God. I have also realised that God is preponing my bad karma to the present so that I don’t suffer more in the future with added interest. Swami’s preachings helped me become more kind to everyone around me and not to hurt good people. Since I cannot do Karma Phala Tyaaga (Practical sacrifice of wealth) as I was not earning, I started serving in the divine mission of God through the development of the photos of Swami by decorating Him in various forms of God like God Datta, Goddess Anaghaa etc. I also started listing the alternative jobs I can do for my career. That’s when another biggest miracle has unfolded.

We went to Swami to show some photos for His review and also asked Swami about my professional career. My mother explained to Swami about what all the Dean has spoken about me. Swami heard everything and told to me “If you have faith in God Datta, continue your career in dentistry only. The whole world is saying that a person with this medical condition cannot pursue this career. Everything in this world has limitations. But, the omnipotent God does not have any limitations. The MLA of Guntur District does not have power in Adilabad District. But, God Datta is the king of this entire creation and His power controls everything in this creation. His power exists over everything at all places and at all times. You believe in Him and continue your studies. Prepare for the entrance of PG and complete the course of Post Graduation”. I was stunned by the words of Swami and remembered the words of Smt. Devi Mam, who often says “Expect the unexpected from God”.

With the guidance given by Swami, I started preparing for the PG exam. With the episodes of pain and depression attacking me frequently, I struggled hard to work on the photos of Swami and simultaneously prepare for the PG entrance exam. Due to the true spiritual knowledge preached by Swami, I  ended up feeling relieved that I am exhausting my bad karma through this and I am not at all in loss. Swami often says that a true devotee asks for difficulties and not pleasures. I might not be that high level devotee to ask God for difficulties. But, I can at least not complain God about the inevitable difficulties in life and embrace them as blessing from God, who is trying to exhaust my bad karma so that I can be happy for eternity in future. Moreover, Swami is suffering every second throughout His life for His devotees and the pain He undergoes is a million times more intense than any human being can even tolerate. I feel infinitely blessed that I got to know about Swami, our contemporary human incarnation of God and witnessed His love through guidance, miracles and protection by His unimaginable suffering of my sins.

With least preparation, I have attempted the entrance exam for PG. Purely by Swami’s grace, I was able to sit in the exam hall for 3 hours. I knew that I would not crack it since there are less than 100 clinical MD seats in Dentistry in the state of Telangana. I came back home and continued to work on the photos. When the exam results came, I was quite surprised that my state-rank was below 500. Anyways, I had no hope in getting the admission. But to my utter shock, I not only got mere admission in the MDS course, but also got one of the top branches called Prosthodontics. On top of it, I got merit-based admission in women’s college, which I prefer the most. I am very very happy that my parents didn’t have to pay donation for my education. My rank and my admission are like day and night, which cannot meet. But God Datta is like the twilight in which both opposites can exist together, which is impossible. I realised that when the impossible Datta Swami is with me, nothing is impossible for me.

Currently, I am in final year of my MDS course. While taking admission, I had no idea how I would deal each day at college. I don’t know when I would get attacked by back pain and I don’t know how to deal myself if I become weak while treating my patients. I only know that Swami is God Datta and Swami’s words cannot go wrong. As assured by Swami, Prakruti rearranged itself throughout the last two years until this very moment. Let me explain how: Whenever I get the attack of sudden back pain, the patient, who already took the appoint at that time, phones to me and says that he/she will not be able to come to the college. I would take rest during that time by Swami’s grace. As long as I am occupied in lab work, the pain does not attack me. When I reach my hostel room after taking dinner, the pain comes for hours and causes suffering. That fades out into the midnight and new day starts in the morning. Major suffering happens during Sundays only so that my professional work is not disturbed during the weekdays. Swami has scheduled my suffering in such an excellent way that it does not disturb my college clinical work. Until today, not even my close associates know that I have this serious medical condition. Dr. Nikhil Sir once told that when we leave everything in the hands of God, we will eventually see God’s hands in everything. This is exactly what is happening in my life.

Swami not only blessed a successful professional career to me, but also great service in His mission by creating His wonderful images decorated as Gods through me. I feel very happy that I am not useless in His creation. By observing the amount of suffering I am going through, I could infer that I am definitely a sinful soul. But, my most benevolent Swami is not rejecting me as His disciple and instead, using me as His instrument to develop His photos. I cannot imagine the forgiving nature of Swami. Although I asked Swami about what kind of sins I have done to attain this suffering, Swami never revealed about it. I know deep down in my heart that I will either collapse with heart attack or hate myself forever if I knew my own past sins. I understood that Swami wants me to be happy and hence, He is not revealing that to me. Swami clearly explained in His knowledge that every soul must aim to reform from all types of sinful tendencies to get liberated from all types of suffering that comes as punishment for those sins.

When I was studying bachelors, I used to get upset and get depressed for every small thing that happens around me. Whenever Swami praises any devotee around me, I used to feel jealous and blamed God as partial. Whenever a devotee appreciates another co-devotee, I used to feel upset that why people are not recognizing my efforts. Everything appeared unfair to me. But, as I absorbed Swami’s knowledge, I realised that it is my self-centred nature that is causing so much pain to me since nothing can go wrong in the administration of God. Swami personally advised me not to watch social movies and instead, watch devotional content. This helped me a lot to clean my mind. I also heard from the video of Shri Satya Sai Baba’s preaching that one should not be inflated with ego and become like a balloon to which even a small touch appears like a strong kick and it moves away. By observing our Swami’s divine qualities such as His patience, humbleness, etc., my self-centred nature dissolved to a large extent. Swami has liberated me from huge amount of mental suffering by suppressing my ego. I request Swami to keep suppressing my ego throughout my life because I am just incapable of handling it myself.

Swami, thanks a million for not abandoning me. I am surviving only because of Your causeless compassion on me. You allow me to feel the intense pain only during the holidays and You decrease the intensity when I have to perform other activities. You always alter the intensity of the pain so that my worldly life is not disturbed. I am spellbound by Your love, Swami. Now, I fully realize that the only one, who truly loves me is You, my God. Swami, ‘unimaginable’ is not only Your nature, but also Your love and compassion.

My current life is the standing proof that Swami, the contemporary human incarnation of God, takes suffering of His devotees in silence and endures it without saying a word, even though the sins are committed by the devotees only. I am happy that I have God in real life in the fullest form of my dear Datta Swami. But, I can never understand why God goes so far for an ignorant and misunderstanding soul like me! I often misunderstand God and blame God in my mind for every small thing. Although I hear the right meaning, my mind gravitates towards blaming God only. I doubt there is no single context, where I have understood God correctly at the very first instance. Only after lot of misunderstanding, I come to correct conclusion by Swami’s grace. Understanding Swami’s knowledge and Swami’s behaviour correctly is the biggest challenge for my crooked mind. Only after a thousand misunderstandings do I realize 1% of the real meaning of Swami’s preaching and love. But, Swami still doesn’t give up on me.

Dear Swami! if I were You, I would have orphaned and destroyed my soul long ago. I myself cannot tolerate my own self and my mind. You not only tolerate me, but also my suffering. Such is Your love. You still guide and motivate me with a smile. Even while suffering 99.9% of my sins, You prescribe medicines to help me bear that 0.1% pain. I feel that if You hadn't created me, I wouldn't have bothered You with this painful mess and poor attitude. Yet, You bear so many souls like me, out of Your unimaginable love and patience. Understanding the fact that You created me out of love and You will never leave me even if I am in hell, is like a divine love letter to my soul. Let me remain at Your divine lotus feet forever and serve You until my last breath in every lifetime. I definitely do not deserve this human birth if not for Your causeless compassion, Swami. Thank you, Swami. Let me always serve You, the Goal and God of this whole creation.

Ms. Bhanu Samaikya

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